*stretch* waking up at home's so great..haha i miss melb, and i miss my apartment...but ahhh home's the best....... =)

had a great couple of days since i got back...met xiang the afternoon i touched down...realised how much i've missed him and how much i've missed just doing normal day-to-day stuffs with him...we had alot of laughs and alot of fun...it reminded me of when we're just fresh in the relationship...albeit the fact that we know each other so much better now..

or mayb it's just me...but thank you doopz for being so sweet today =)

and i finally got to watch him compete in fin!!! i've been away all this while and never actually got to watch him in action...it's a small meet this time...at queenstown swimming pool...but seeing him glide through the water so effortlessly and then emerging to come join me by the side brought back memories of then millions of times i sat by the pool watching and cheering him on for trainings and competitions...

the sun got to me too...my nose and cheeks were red by the close of the afternoon...haha should have brought my swim stuffs...wanted so desperately to jump in the water and escape from the heat..bleahz...that's lousy planning for you...

went back to his place and caught some olympic action after...why do the divers have to shower each time they get out of the water?

met ian for a yummy yummy dinner at newton after...mmmmmm finally got to dig in to sedap stingray *drool*..and of course, i had my sliced fish mee sua....YUM!!!!!! was deciding between drinking sugar cane with lemon, teh tarik and coconut..when ian resloved it for me and ordered all three haha

and ian lost a $10 bet to me!!!! wahahaha that's what happens when you do not believe me when i say that there's a spinelli's at forum..muahaha *feels rich*

and ian gave me a surprise present =) a gorgeous album with some photos of me with my babes and one with him...it came with stickers that can be pasted to accompany the photos! like "i'm such a hottie" (for when i need an ego-boost), and "definite bad behaviour" (for naughty pictures) haha THANK YOU!!!!! *feels richer* =)

went to zouk after and met up with my babes grace, deb, net, helly and tian...being at zouk seemed to certify that i was finally back in singapore haha the music was pretty crap though, and the crowd was boring (hmmm did that have anything to do with the fact that there was an SMU bash just before we got there?)...we left after an hour or so of doing nothing at members'...haha

went to HIDEOUT and caught my favourite DJ SCUD spin!!! finally!! haha i'v missed a million of dave's 'gigs' and decided that i won't miss this one, no matter how tired i was...stayed at hideout for awhile before sharing a cab with the girls..they dropped off at net's friend's place at siglap and i made my way home....so tired.....

konked out once my head touched the pillow.....

"please empty all your bags for checking madam. we suspect u are in
possession of illegal substances. please co-operate with us. thank you very
much.

as soon as we are done, u can go home and sleep!!! hahaha welcome back to
merlion land"

haha merlion land indeed....idito....haha

ARGH!!! smting's wrong with the computer and i just lost an entire post...why oh why oh why did i not copy the thing first before clicking on 'publish'!!? =(

ok..attempt to recap...

"Lay-lees and gen-dle-men, welcome to sing-Ga-pour..and to all sing-Ga-poreans,
a warm welcome home"

ahhh singlish never sounded so good..haha i am finally FINALLY home...after all that mess..packing and rushing around like a mad woman...bleahz

"can the loser who missed her flight please put up her hand?"

*timidly raises right arm*

yes...i'm an idiot...i was late - VERY late for my afternn flight...flight's scheduled departure time was 4pm...i got there at 3.40pm...the entire SQ check-in rows were blanketed in darkness..and only 2 ladies remained behind the (closed) service counter....needless to say, i missed my SQ228...

had to get myself on the next flight

i thought it'd be a breeze...seeing that it's august and not exactly peak period...but i didn't count on some mainland chinese tourgroup and business group on crashing the party...SQ218 was OVERBOOKED....they put me on waitlist...

i went back to my apartment......

but of course, being me, i wasn't just gona sit there and wait for a miracle call...i went back to the airport at 8+pm and got myself on standby...(many many thankz to peishan who drove me to and fro, to and fro)

many many hours of worrying, time-wasting, book-reading and fries-eating resulted in a happy ending...*phew* the counter-guy who helped me managed to bump me on the flight on the very last minute...this bitchy lady was telling him "the flight's full, it's not possible"..but he did some magic and shifted the passengers around and WALA, i got a seat...(made all the more satisfying when he smugly told the bitch off with a "nothing's impossible")

maybe bigben's tips on smiling and flirting with the counter-guy worked after all..haha i thought all was lost at the beginning..coz he kept staring at his computer and i couldn't do much seducing..haha

anywayz..flight was good...first time i slept so much inflight...and it's DEEP sleep too...the stewardess had to shake me to wake me up for breakfast haha

a surprise awaited me at the airport...i mistook grace for my sis when she pounced on me from behind....haha thank you my dears grace, deb and ian for taking the time and trouble to drive all the way to changi to welcome me back...i may not have showed it..but i was very surprised...very pleasantly so =) (fatigue renders me unable to transmit emotions to outward appearance)

ahhh it's good to be back...... =)

i haven't woken up on this side of the morning in a long long while...it's unearthly..no one should be made to wake up @ 6am...unless it's for a gazillion bucks...

and no....try as i might..no one seems to be willing to give me a gazillion bucks..instead, i'll be forking out $55 this morning....so that i can do some dummy kissing...

yes...i'm taking my CPR course...at the RED CROSS...in the hope that i'll finally FINALLY complete my australian swim-teaching cert...and on my 2nd-last dae in melbourne too...why haven't i learnt that it is a BAD BAD idea to leave things to the last minute?! (maybe coz things always seem to have a way of completing themselves SUCCESSFULLY when i tackle them at the latest possible time? *thinks back on all the midnight oil burnt on assignments* i'm such a procrastinator...

still feeling shitty coz i seem to be making absolutely no headway in my packing...feel like just throwing the whole damn house out...ARGH why can't my things just sprout legs and jump themselves into the boxes?

and the things i don't want anymore should juz take a hike...crawl themselves outa the door, into the elevators to the first floor, out into the carpark and into the huge rubbish dumps...there's so much rubbish i need to throw away!!!!!!

i'd make any garang guni master proud...

oh shit...running late...grrrrrr *slurps down nice hot cuppa mifee (milo+coffee) and gobbles down yummy sesame bread*

the close of yet anoder not-very-productive day...

i dread waking up......i dread opening my eyes and seeing mt. junk materialize...

my arms are aching from carrying boxes home...

finally bought the freight company's boxes so i can fill dem up wif my junk and freight dem home...man, din noe empty, flattened boxes can be so heavy..esp when aided by the wind...i was like doing a horizontal parachute float...

one good thing - it was reali quite warm today!!! i wore shorts out..woohoo haven't been able to do dat for such a long time...spring's finally upon us...juz when i'm leaving..dammit..

oh and anoder good thing - coaching assessment went pretty well todae... =) now juz to clear tom's hurdle and it'l all be done!!! whoopeedoooooo

tired & confused...*sighz* so wat's new...

i seem to be going no where with the packing..just a never-ending excavation of stuffs...more and more and more...how the hell did all these get here?! i fear i wil be forever shackled to all this junk ...

i'm such shitty company when i'm down...and dat juz makes me feel even shittier...and i get shirty abt the smallest things..and i just wana be anti-social...
and yet i dun really wana be anti-social...

argh

everything in my life seems to be in such a mess right now...i am a mess...a worthless floater aimlessly haunting this earth...WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WIF ME?!?!?!

do u noe that the words 'solos', 'madam' and 'racecar' each haf the same spelling even when they are spelt backwards?

pasta overdose......i think i've eaten enough to feed a family of 6... ~

coaching went ok todae...a tad boring..but ah wel...was tired...i'm gonna be having my assessment tomorrow and on wednesday!!! hopefully i'l go alright..then i'll finally get my cert (after i go take my cpr course)...abit worried...abit scared..but.....hopefully i'll do ok! *takes deep breath*

i constantly smell of chlorine =/

xiang is watching 'friends' now..dammit i wana watch too..miss 'friends'...now that i do not have my telly (sold it), the apartment seems so..quiet...and i've been going over to glenn's on mondays (official tv nite) in order to catch my favourite shows on aust telly: 'friends' followed by '2 and a half men' then 'queer eye for the straight guy' then 'the apprentice'....monday nites used to be 'sex and the city' nite too..but dey did away wif that after they finished showing the 2nd last season....and since lastlast week, queer eye's been taking a break, and the apprentice's finale had already been shown...

they are currently showing the top 10 aust favourite episodes of 'friends'...i tink the one i saw last week was #7 - the one wif elle macpherson...i missed today's one coz i's coaching..bleahz..

ok..i sound like a tv guide....haha withdrawal symptoms man...

oh and i'v started packing..a little..haha finally started sorting out my clothes and stuffs...into 'yes, no, maybe' stacks/mountains...i'v got a LONG way to go.....

*currently feeling very very disorganized* *sighz*

here i am again...butt perched on the edge of my mattress..crouching over my lappie that's sitting on the carpet...surrounded by my sea of stuffs...i feel so forlorn.. =/

and i'm aching like hell...yesterday was so tiring - woke up early coz of coaching...ended coaching at 1240hrs....rushed like mad to training that's at uni @ 1300hrs...got there only at 1330..coz of the FANTASTIC weekend transport system ~

and training almost killed me...played some games, did drills...RAN.....mad sprints up and down the courts..NON-STOP!!!! i thought i was gona die from the lack of oxygen..haven ran in so long...right now, my legs are screaming abuse...and my whole body's aching...bleahz...

pleasure in pain? - yeah i guess..i kinda like these kinda aches...sadistic me...haha

got up early again today...went to run some errands...went to the fantastic new city library to return and get more books..then to safeway for meat and stuffs - i just made yummy yummy pasta for lunch...and there's so much left in the pot, i tink dinner, supper, tomoro's breakfast, lunch and dinner will all be pasta..haha

i should really be getting up and preparing for coaching now....*sighz* am feeling so bleahz...i dun wana go out and get tortured by the little tykes!!! *help*

the pool awaits my 4-hr company......... *slump*

why do u say that u do not care, then get so mad at the merest mention of his name?

*sighz*

last nite was great - thanz very much to my baddy teammates hu got togeder for wat they call my 'deportation dinner' at the yummy BISTRO 1!!! *ahhh remembers my perfectly-done steak*
(we all noe i was just the excuse for everyone to haf a posh meal) haha *rub-a-tum-tum*
i will miss u guys so much...cant believe i won't be joining u guys for perth :-(

special thanz to edmund..hu found the cosy restaurant, and let us roam in his apartment for after-dinner gelati(mmm SHIOK!!!), cookies(compliments of clare and mrs fields), laughter(russel peters' damn funny!) and baddy(ahhh dat korean HA T K guy's so cute!!! i'm so glad he won the gold medal hahaha)...

had one of my best coaching sessions yesterdae afternn...i feel like i'm finally getting the hang of it..but it stil unnerves me when my mentor coach watches me coach and gives me tips..she's friendly and all, but makes me feel SO inadequate... :-\ but wat better way to learn yah? haha

juz got back from a haircut..or rather, a hair-trim...i am BALD now!!!!!!!haha cant imagine myself bald...got an all-round trim...but only thinned out the fringe (no, din cut any shorter - much to xiang's relief hahaha) i's wondering if i shud get it cut shorter..since it's growing out rite now and i look like a shaggy dog...but alan (haircutter - like grasscutter) said i shudn't, since i'm gona work now...ahh wel...i'v to be MATURE and all GROWN UP now i gues....*shudder*

guess wat? packing stats = still ZERO % ~~~

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but it does remind me of my polka-dot skirt =)

dammit...i need to go drown ma kiddies now...*sighz*

packing statistics : ZERO % completed

[yes ian, i noe, i'l start packing *promise* =)]

me wif ma darling minmin...i miss u!!! 

- the biggest idiot in the world -

it gets into my blood
this plague, niggling at me
a never-ending tale
of one notoriously fickle girl
splashing out in this world
not waving, but drowning

big and bold outwards
making lively conversations
at communal tables
with forgettable ghosts
yet haunted inside
stricken

but if i can bear it
grin and dilute this spiteful business
get scraped and cleaned
and fly out the door
then i'd be open
not the biggest idiot in the world
but alive and off the hook
and i'll still be here

She stares into me and scrutinizes herself, then grimaces. She eyes her hair critically - long, all-over-the-place, just-got-out-of-bed hair. A hand rises and explores the contours of her face - this shell that is so often manipulated to hide everything underneath......... ~the mirror~

sharp aches streak through flesh and soul
shattering the jigsaw under my breast
a single voice loops in my head
a silent, thundering beating.

the hands of time continue ticking
but this life has ceased to be
going through the motions like clockwork
drowning in a bubble no one can see.

curled up under heavy bedding
no warmth can reach this empty shell
swollen eyes on a wet pillow
these streams can't be dammed.

i don't wana pack!!!

i'v spent the past few days lying on my island - my nice, warm mattress - wif the company of my tortoise, a million books, hiding under my quilt and faux fur throw..*sighz* bliss yes..but it makes me SO LETHARGIC iz not funny..

and everytime i deem to look further than the tips of my toes, i see the scatter of things that surround me - stacks that i'm suppose to pack into as few boxes as possible, stacks through which i have to very selectively and brutally minimalize into handle-able little groups...smtimes i wish a garung guni would just swing by and take dem all off my hands..

i do not wana pack......

i was rudely woken up todae...bloody cleaners...juz come into the aptment and started vacuuming and all..y doesn't dis aptment haf a DOOR BELL?!?! we can't hear anyone knock when we're in our rooms!

and normal ppl will buzz us through the intercomm coz dey can't come upstairs otherwise..but cleaners haf the access card and all..darn dem..y cant dey giv us a time so we KNOW when dey'r coming!?

watching the apprentice now...wish i's working for donald trump..he has a horrid combover..weaved hair all...but wow..wat a life...RESPECT! and the way he makes decisions and all..chopchop curry pok! RESPECT!

i need a job...sighz..i need to get a job..i need more contacts...otherwise i'l end up a hobo sleeping on old newspapers on a park bench...

i had a noodle-full dae todae...had korean noodles wif mushrooms for lunch..den juz made indomie wif mushrooms (again) for din...bleahz....gona go for roast duck porridge later -yay-
feelin kinda healthy todae (other dan the absolute need for vegs)...but i went for a swim..dat was good..hehz am gona miss my pool...iz on the 3rd floor...wif glass panelled surroundings so can look out...iz like swimming in the sky..sort of..haha and the jacuzzi's a godsend on a cold nite like dis...10degrees celsius...*help*

damn i feel like gelati...................