zenn bites...

i'm back...in melb...after a mth+ spent in spore...quick update - haf decided not to study anymore...shall be an unemployed graduate and scour the streets for suitable jobs...so am jz back in melb to pack up, meet frens, sae my gdbyes and seeyas..am oredi feeling rather sad...iz funny, how i miss spore when i'm here, but now dat i'm leaving, and when i'm in spore, i miss melb...i look arnd the city, and my apartment, and i feel a whole sense of belonging...and den i'm reminded dat i'l hav to leave it all behind soon..and it juz strikes me in the face...spore is home..but melb....is 2nd home...and the thought of not being able to come back here as often as i'd like to.....

juz read deb's blog, and got all interested in blogging again...

am touched by so many things dat she wrote...true, straight-up feelings...so much confusion and dilemmas, so difficult to get tings rite...

dis trip back to spore showed me sm stuffs...al dat grp dynamics shit - how smting seemingly small can cause such an upheaval...so blown outa proportion...how everything's nv gona be the same agn...

so many things ppl sae to me...which shud i believe in? wat CAN i believe in?so many ppl i care for...shud i juz listen to my gut instincts?am i rite in the way i tink? am i rite in juz going wif the flow, stayin in the middle and seeing how things work out? or am i juz being stupid? y cant everything jz be simple......or am i the one making dem complicated?

i felt so loved d dae i touched down in melb (sundae 25jul)...coz i came online and xiang, gary, drei, ave and mark immediately said hi to me on msn...and oso coz ian'z so sweet to me...realised how much i'v missed dem oredi..

it's nice spending so much time wif d guys over the last mth, wat wif d performances and all..got to noe dem abit beta...esp gary, whom i haven reali been close to evn tho i'v seen him quite abit thru xiang...it's nice...xiang stil puzzles me...but i'v fun evn when i'm juz wheedling time away wif him playin minesweeper on msn...and i's jz telling grace todae, dat after so long, he's stil capable of surprising me smtimes (in the good way)...dat amazes me...

newayz...SWIM SHADYS album THE DEEP END's out!!! only $12 for all-original songs by 5 hunky-dory national swimmers!!! and all proceeds go to the charity, CARE (reaches out to youths in need)...get the albums from me!!!!

speaking of charity..i need some money too..spent over $300 out shopping todae...wif grace at chaddy...OMG....i bought a pair of heels, a red polo tee, a cap, and a pair of work pants (coz hopefully i'l get a job soon)...i'm broke..but my rationale - i dun shop in spore, so iz ok dat i shop here...(dun tink dad'l buy dat tho)...