loss
such a tiny word that seems incapable of encapsulating all the emotions that come with it. but perhaps, it is word enough.
the tears will never cease completely, fond memories live on. it still seems surreal, still feels like my dad is just away on one of his frequent trips overseas. until reality sinks in. then again, perhaps that's just it - he's gone off early for a super long holiday, recce-ing the place while waiting for us to join him.
2009 ended with much grief. through the dark moments though, rays of sunshine do appear. in trying to come to terms with the fagility of life, the finality of death, the importance of having a close family and the support of friends become all the clearer. it would have been a lot tougher, and lonelier, without them. shared sorrow isn't necessarily halved sorrow, but the hugs, the calls, the kind words, they do help and i am eternally grateful to all who took it upon themselves to walk with us in this difficult time.
i ushered in 2010 first on the plane (singapore time), then in the little bar in bandos resort, male, in front of the big countdown screen, with noisy holiday-makers and a bunch of (thankfully) easy-going colleagues that included qian's will (a familiar face is especially nice to have on such flights), and chauchau on the phone, straining to hear me through all that din, counting down the seconds with me. i also woke up in time to count down with london, then new york, via cnn.
the first day of the new year was spent by the pool before and after the company-provided lunch, soaking in some sun, writing a postcard, cooling off with a coffee milk shake. not a bad way to start the year with, i suppose.
it was particularly nice to come home to mum and breakfast with chau, and later, upon checking my email, this:
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