zenn bites...

i'm an okay morning person, i think. but i'm not an okay small-talk person. i try to steer clear of having to struggle to find words just for the sake of entertaining someone. the inanity of having to pull questions from out of thin air and answer similarly meaningless ones just bores and annoys me to no end. especially when i have absolutely no interest in that person.

if i happen to be in a wacky mood, well then i'll probably be able to spout some nonsense. but more often than not, regardless of moods, i find small-talking totally pointless - the pregnant pauses, weary smiles, having to wreck my brains for politically correct responses, trying to remember whatever little i know of that stranger, not knowing where to look when the talk dies off etc. it's just all so painful!

i guess everything kinda starts from small-talks, but it's the talk-just-for-the-sake-of-talking kind that makes me uncomfortable. it's alright if the other person leads the way and actually has a point, some direction, an interesting topic, some semblance of intelligent thought etc...what's way off is the type who come up to you with a relatively cheery "hello" followed by an awkward "errrrr" complete with antenna searching for a conversation topic. *help*

it's the same as those who, after leaving the planet eons ago, msn me "zeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnnnnn" followed by a "why you so daaaaaaooooooooo?". i mean, seriously, what in the world am i supposed to say?!

perhaps i just haven't quite got the knack for making small talk. i know people who are super pr and can get on with a total stranger like a house on fire. so i guess it's just me, not you. don't mind me for keeping quiet when i've got nothing to say and can't be bothered about finding some rubbish to throw back at you.

bah, guess my point is just that there's no point making labored conversations that go no where. friendliness and all, that's perfectly welcomed. but superficial greetings...well, sometimes, silence is golden.