zenn bites...

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it has been pretty rough lately but i take solace in the fact that my family and friends are here for me. lots of thinking to be done (as if i haven't done enough), and i really need to work out what it is that i want and need and how to go about doing/achieving it.

i have let myself down in more ways than one - in terms of how i handle things and how i handle myself. it's a major disappointment, to say the least, and it's high time i rectify things.

there used to be a time when i was all ra-ra-ra and raring to go, up for any challenge and on the ball 24/7. but in some areas of my life now, i think i've lost a lot of my drive - got distracted and depressed, side-tracked and never really re-found the path i was previously on. i've changed in many aspects, and not exactly in a good way. it's time to wake up and get back in focus.

i'm sorry to the ones i've wronged, caused worry and freaked out - i am psycho, but really, not that psycho when i'm sane. *cough*schizo*cough*split personality*cough*bipolar*cough* =)

anyway...had another one of my impromptu pepper lunches with feng just now, after ian bailed out on us and i couldn't get through to the ramen place at gallery hotel. the lamster and colin-molin lunched with us, and we had the requisite ah lian/beng smoke session outdoors after our yummy meal:

*edited* due to complains, this photo has been edited. yes, i was hanging out with a flower. i'm keeping the pics up coz i like how i look. yah lah i'm vain.

hock had complimentary tickets to the descent yesterday and invited gracie, feng and i to join him for a girls' night out at the movies (thank you hocky!). the descent was disturbing, gory, and claustrophobic at times, but the bit of screaming i did did me some good and made me high and jittery (in a good way) all night. don't think i'll be caving anytime soon though. eek.

it was a (scary) hoot when we were in the car after the show and hock kinda re-enacted a shocking accident scene (sans car crash and metal poles spearing my head).

we got to wisma and joined loon wei, kamil, steph and eugenia at the huge food junction (my first time there!) and tucked in to a late dinner while playing catch-up with kamil whom i haven't seen in eons.

the entertainment continued at coffee club @ holland where our resident hypnotherapist tried to work his magic on feng. we didn't get to see the full effect though coz of ian's HA-HA-HA, my camera's flash (oopsie) and the general coffee club chatter.

and look! i got caught smoking! *gasp*

haha right. i didn't even hold the ciggie correctly at the beginning haha. this one-person anti-smoking campaign hasn't yet bowed down to the fagdiction (fag-addiction)!

i quote: "yipee! i'm a non-smoker!" *blows on harmonica* =P