zenn bites...

i sought solace.
not just from your words
but from you being present
when i needed you most.

you didn't even have to say anything
for at the worst of times
your presence alone comforts me.
that familiar pair of arms
that familiar warmth
that familiar comfort.

but you showed me
that i'm not worth it
not worth you giving me the little comfort i'm so craving for
not worth you coming after me.

and after i'd walked away
you replied you're sorry
and the excuses come along.

the world isn't about you alone
and i've never expected much in return
but today, just today,
i needed you to be there for me
the way i've always been there for you.

you'll make it up to me, you say
but don't you understand?
sometimes things are about the present
and once that's broken, it's forever wrecked.

if you could only understand
just how much i really needed you today.

but perhaps it doesn't matter any more.