zenn bites...

sometimes, the powers-that-be don't understand the difficulties of hanging in the middle, powerless.

yes i know that i'm in the wrong at times, and errors cannot be excused even though i never had the training and am just attempting not to make too many mistakes as i learn. i try to work out a smoother flow, keep improving on the processes, think things through yet in the end it always seems like i still don't think enough.

how am i supposed to know something and pre-empt something, if i'm not even given the basic facts?!

sometimes, i feel really incompetent and careless, discouraged and wronged.

i feel like a fish out of water, and it's getting really hard to breathe.